We all have done it…ughhh…made a bad choice. It’s part of making our way through this maze of life. But, what if you make a life choice that turns out wrong and it costs you big for years? How do you rebound? Is it too late?
I was listening to a message from Pastor Tony Evans and he talked about this and he used Moses in the Bible as an example and I was so encouraged that he preached this message. Moses was called to lead his people, the Israelites, out of bondage in Egypt but instead of waiting on God’s timing, he took matters into his own hands (read the book of Exodus). He had to flee Egypt and it was 40 years gone before he fulfilled God’s calling on his life.
I have not thought God had a big calling like that on my life, but I do know that I made some costly decisions in my past that has stolen years from me and I’ve wondered many times is it too late to fix it? I have no idea if God is going to give me a miracle to get me out of my current situation but what was inspiring in Pastor Evans’ sermons was the part he said that it’s not too late for those of us who have made bad choices to finish strong.
For instance maybe you hung out with the wrong crowd and to fit in you took drugs and got addicted so badly you ended up in and out of jail. Maybe you had a botched up abortion and you can’t have a child again, or maybe you married for love but with the wrong person and it turned out to be a nightmare. Whatever it is, let me say…”don’t give up“. When I was in church service last Sunday during worship, I couldn’t hold back my tears as I prayed silently, “Lord, I am nothing but broken pieces and I give you my broken pieces to put back together again.” God knows your heart.
Perhaps you didn’t do anything self-destructive, but you made a bad career or business decision like I did and you can’t correct it. Now, you’re living with a lot of regret and you don’t know to recover, let alone get on top again. You’ve prayed asking for forgiveness and mercy but nothing has changed for the better. Not yet anyway. Regret is something you don’t want to live with for the rest of your life. So as in my case, I just keep going to God in prayer. I don’t try to follow my own mind, but instead I stand and wait on God to either fix my wrong or grace me enough to go through the aftermath while I’m waiting to be delivered. The good part is we serve a merciful, forgiving God. And one of the scriptures in the sermon I listened to was Joel 2:25-32, where it talks about The Lord will restore the years the swarming locusts has stolen…it’s Him replacing all the time spent in anguish with renewed hope.
I hope I can encourage you if you are feeling that God can’t use you again or that it’s too late to have a good life. I know this is a touchy subject but I felt in my heart it is time for me to talk about it. It’s not easy looking in one’s own heart and seeing the ugly. I haven’t told many people the mistakes I made but as I get older and time is shorter, I think clarity has hit me and I realize the missed chances and choices I wish I could have a do-over. And again, as encouragement, if you’re still here God is not done with you yet. There’s still good for you, there’s still blessings God has for you. Don’t wallow in the mud of yesterday, you can rebound from a bad choice and with God, you and I can thrive.